Sunday, November 27, 2005
11/27/2005 11:58:00 PM
CLARA CHAN aka BEI~
HAPPY "BIRD"DAY
TO MY SWEETEST BUDDY and that's u!
well, u must have think that i forgotten ur birthday yea?
'cause i didnt send u a birthday sms! hahaa
BUT .. i didnt! i just wanna leave u a msg in my blog and i wanna be the last one to wish u on 11.59pm here!
woo~ Finally, u are 17th..
Have to take really good care of urself k?
I don't wanna see my pretty budd to fall sick esp it's ard ur birthday.. that isn't good.
**now here i go singing out my awful voice to u..
"Happie happie happie birthday birthday!
happie happie happie birthday to u.
Happie happie happie happie happie birthday to bei..
and a happie birthday to u!"
my own created birthday song just for u..
If got chance i will sing it to u k? xD
Takie care freniz.. *Muackss!* <3
Friday, November 25, 2005
11/25/2005 01:21:00 PM
Like what i say i never been as a waitress before and plus im slow, stm and clumsy.
My memory just isn't that good and for those who knw me well , i ain't good at talking.
So it's like a hell to me to work as a waitress.
First day at work on wednesday, everything is so fine just that i spilt a jug of beer and a cup of plain water.. Luckily the customers are good and friendly.
Working under there is quite pressurized. You need to have a great brain and a pair of fast working hands.
There's lots of things u need to remember, by just looking at it.. there's 4 freaking menus!
Thursday, i didnt work and i had my slp till 6pm in the evening. After that went to northpoint to walk ard with my mummy and sisters and rushed home to catch 9pm show.
and Today... it's friday and it's my second day at work.
I really hate working there but i am tolerating.
I was scolded in front of everyone for saying something unclearly.
Like........
me : "ice pls!" said to the bar
manager : "what ice?"
me : "ice! "bing" in chinese.
manager : "what?
me : " ice lo, ice... "
manager : "WHAT ICE? a bucket or a cup? clumsy freaking fellow! " shouted irritated at me.
me : " bucket " said softly.
seriously i really feel like giving him a tight slap! hello sir, im new ok? can't u just talk properly? well, i dont care u are manager or what. I Just hate u from nw onwards. Nowonder everyone was like saying dont make Bernard angry. He's real fierce. Damn bloodly hell. Whatever shyt. enough of this, think of it will feel like slapping pple. lmao! i dropped a glass today =(
I was told to leave early at work today -11pm cause there's too much crew. ok well.
I went home and reached ard 1am and waited for my cousin, Chuanxi to fetch me with his cool bikey to supper and drinks.
We chatted all the way to 3am and packed food for my sister. Rode his bike home.. so "shiok" but not fast enough.. hahaha. wel im worn out. need to replenish my slp. nights freniz! -muacks-
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
11/22/2005 02:13:00 PM
here i come ok?
cause i am very into online shopping nowadays and im lazy to update! lol
Last friday , i met Samson, Ken, Ken's girl, Helen, Fenny and Fenny's fren, Justine out for sushi buffet! It's kinda waste of money that day cause fenny, justine and samson didn't eat much yea. Helen , Ken and me was like eat and eat and eat. First day meeting Ken's girl,Jessie and Justine. Both of them are nice and socialise, thou i dont knw them well but we can actually talk =) Maybe im too friendly hahaha.. Well these two sweet girls is nice and fun-loving, both are skinny =p
Jessie is more on a mature pretty sweet kinda and Justine is Cute sweet lil girl. Thou' i dont knw them well but i hope that Jessie and ken will blossom =) and for Justine , all i have to say is study hard and play hard. You are the sweet lil cutie pie in my eyes. After the sushi buffet we went to Far east plaza for some shopping. None of us actually shopped other than Helen! She's always shopping away -.- Helen.. cut down on ur shopping k? it's for ya own good. After that Justine went home and we went to Cine for pool. Sam's girl, Xinhui joined us and played for about 1hr den Fenny headed to meet her fren up. We then go to catch My harry Potter movie! It's a nice movie but quite disappointing cause it's nt very detailed.. still nice anyway.. after the movie we all went separate ways. Helen and me went for supper , we ordered satay and rojak. The food there is awful and expensive =/ After supper , we headed to take Nr1 back home. reached home around 5am in the morning.
On Saturday, i was home the whole day quite boring .. around 11pm, my beloved cousin, ChuanXi asked me out for supper so i went out to meet him. He came and fetch me with his cool bike, had so much fun riding on the bike lol. thanks for the supper ! and i went online shopping till the morning..
On Sunday, i went out with my two lil sisters to Causeway for dinner and catch bears agn but i still cant get any =( After that we headed back to yishun and meet Mum home. I was told that i will be starting work on wednesday and not monday.
On monday, i was at home the whole entire day.. boredom.. -online shopping-ing- =)
And today.. i had my last paper Science MCQ! To my horror, i forgotten to bring my Pencil case , Entry proof and Calculater to the exam hall!!! So i end up borrowing a pencil from one of the candidates and i told the teacher in charge that i forgotten abt my entry proof but luckily, i can still take the exam.. After exam, i went down to bugis to meet Justin and shopped for a while den we headed down to town to get movie tickets, Tom Yum Goong - it's a damn nice show, a must to catch it ! -While waiting for the movie at 9.40pm. We went to Far East for a lil shop and i bought a T-shirt den after that we went paragon as Justine wanna look for his Jacket, saw fairuz and guys there.. den we headed to movie and after that we took the last train home.
I'll be working tml guys.. im excited and fear cause i nv been working as a waitress before and i guess i will be damn clumsy....... well, i m going off to bed now.. take care friends... anyway, i want to Mah Jong! bei, heard it? =x
this is to ying and bei... take care buddies, u both fell sick and me too .. the weather is really bad nowadays , do cover up urself warm enough and slp well.. love ya always. <3
--- im off to bed .. swet drms! =)
Thursday, November 17, 2005
11/17/2005 10:03:00 AM
ytd was a fun but angry day. i spent ard 40bucks on arcade just to catch the bear from the machine. But i failed to catch any. Firstly i was at causeway point's timezone. There's a huge Pooh bear catching machine which seems so attractive to all players. Everyone was like toppping up their cards and kept playing just to catch the pooh or mickey. I think the attractive part is when u caught 2 of them u are able to exchange the 2feet winne e pooh for a 4feet one which is so big! per game is just 2bucks. i try and try and try. after wasting ard 26bucks on it i took train back to yishun. Helen came and meet me and i went mad and wanting to play arcade bear catching agn! so we went up to yishun's timezone and see whether there's any bear catching machine. Unfortunately , there's small bears catching machine.. so i top up with 10bucks first and i still can't get any of the bears, followed by another 10... after screamings and yellings i finally caught a small winnie the pooh bear. -.-"
i am damn elated eventhough i wasted like so much money for a lil pooh. I really had fun and i never had so much fun for so long.. =) shaa lalala...
ok let's talk abt today.. woke up at 11am and prepare to go for lunch with my mum and sisters. We planned to have Newyork pizza since monday so we went and had it as our lunch.. It's really worth having Newyork pizza. The pizza is huge and its only $5.90 and it's tasty. After having my lunch i have to rush to take my Poa paper 1 at 2pm. So i took a cab down and it cost me 4bucks. Den after exams at 3pm i went to Junction 8 to find my mum and my sisters walked around and bought some finger food but didnt buy any clothes. I left at 4:45pm and went to Town-Far east plaza and wait for Kai. After he arrived , we Just walk and shop around.. helping kaikai to find those jeans that he wanna buy and jacket and he help me to find ring and tops. I look for a ring for so long already and i haven't got one. So guys if u see any nice rings let me knw k? Just leave me a msg telling me where is it and the rough pattern.. After walking ard in Far east plaza , we went to the shopping place beside Lido and kai bought a ripcurl jacket for $105. It's nice and unique. We went over to Cineleisure for Dinner and After that ard 9:30pm we went to hereen and im suppose to meet eric up and pass her $15 bucks. So i met her and passed her, had a lil bit of chat, Statyed on for around 10mins and kai and me headed back to our home sweet home.. Now my both legs like breaking apart lol. I need someone to massage for me! =( Somehow i think i'll be doom later for the History paper.. I havent even touch a single tiny lil page on history yet..
I'll be working on monday.. hurrayx3 for me =)
Well, it's time for bed...
good nights guys and sweet dreams =)
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
11/16/2005 10:42:00 AM
It's something that im feeling right now.. =)
An empty street, an empty house
A HOLE inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)
And OH my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far
Chorus:
SO I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER,
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN..MY LOVE
OVER SEAS AND coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN...MY LOVE.
I try to read, I GO TO work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)
And OH my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far
SO I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER,
And hope my dreams will take ME there
Where the skies are blue,TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN...MY LOVE
OVER SEAS AND coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN....
To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of
Reaching for the love that seems so far
SO I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER
And hope my dreams will take ME there
Where the skies are blue, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN...MY LOVE
OVER SEAS AND coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN... MY LOVE.
Say A LITTLE prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take ME there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah), TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN. (oh my love)
OVER SEAS AND coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN.... My Love.
Westlife - My love.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
11/15/2005 12:51:00 PM
Nothing much happened today.
Woke up at 5pm and had my lunch.
watched tv till 7plus and went to northpoint for a lil walk with my sisters.
Had my dinner and desserts in the foodcourt.
meet my mum at the mrt and went to ntuc and bought some food home.
That's all.. bored lol.
I want you back now that you're gone.
My heart's a pit no love can fill.
I stumble through my days of stone
Bereft of joy, bereft of will.
I could not tell myself I loved
You as I did for fear of pain.
Far easier not to be moved,
Than moved to love, and hurt again.
How stupid! I loved anyway,
And now the blame is all my own.
Please rescue me, this torture stay,
And for my sin I will atone.
Monday, November 14, 2005
11/14/2005 09:23:00 AM
Nothing much happened today.. woke up at 2pm and started preparing for my job interview at 5pm. It's somewhere at Harbour front.
Met Kim up and he brought me to the place, Vila Bali.
The working environment is nice and relaxing with a lil frangance smell and it's an antique place.
A place with paintings and full of art, somewhere that i feel so great.
After the interview, i went back down to yishun and meet my Helen at 7 15pm
We went down to FarEast Plaza for a short shopping as we only left with lil time to shop around. Helen did some shopping, she got herself a jeans and a pair of heels.
A cardigan and a belt caught her eyes too . It's nice and unique but i think it's too expensive so i asked her not to get it as she already spent alot.
All the shops are preparing to close so we left and headed back to yishun.
She went home while i waited for my Mum to end work at Yishun mrt.
After meeting her , we went to ntuc and headed home after buying some food.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
11/13/2005 02:29:00 PM
This is the decision.. we are back to friends.
At least , im glad..
She'll be happy and i am too.
Just want u to remember. i'll alwas be there for u.
Whenever u feel down or there's difficulties or what.. im just a msg away.
Hope u could get away all ur troubles and porblems soon and be a happier one.
Most importantly , be happy =)
11/13/2005 07:21:00 AM
HAPPY 16th
BIRTHDAY..
Sam.. from the first day i saw u.
Thou' i dont knw u that well at that time, u jus seems..
..like a lil boy with no worries.
You tend to laugh and jokes and u are someone that can bring entertainment to everyone.
You are a nice friend to be with..
After almost 3yrs of knowing u..
You grown up and u are 16 now!
You are able to walk into Nc16 movies without smuggling. =x
Your mind gets complicated at times somehow.
Having lots of problems
but remembering..
No matter what there are friends out there just to b there for u.
And im an example =)
But you are still young to me la huh.. lol
thou' u may seems bigger size than me or just younger by one.
to me u are still young in my heart =/
Well all the craps aside..
Wishing u all the best in everything that u do.
Best wishes for ur O's and blossom in ur love life.
Last of all, Remember there is someone like me. =p
Today is a tiring day, meet up Kai at yishun to go to Bugis for some shopping.
After walking for sometime in Bugis junction, Fenny joined us.
She was looking for a Plain tube for her friend and asking me where got sell.
She did lotsa shopping herself -.- like some rich kid lol
Kai and i walked up and down, in and out.. looking for clothes that we like, but none was found.
After that i saw a jeans and tried it on..
Find it nice so i bought it..
We went Burger King for dinner and i had my favourite BBQ turkey bacon cheeseburger meal.
And Fenny had her favourite Bk chicken sandwich with cheese meal and Kai enjoys his Deluxe Lamb Meal.. we had a lil more shopping at Bugis village after dinner..
Kai was so poor thing.. He can't find the jeans that he likes.
Even he found there's no size and end up he bought nthing.
Fenny bought quite a number of clothes but i can't recall what did she bought.
After that Fenny took a bus home while me and kai walked to Mrt.
We chatted quite alot on our way home.. about things happens before.
enjoyed talking to him and stuff.. plus with his craps..
The day ended this way..
Flipped my phone more than 100times today as i can say..
Why did i do this?
Nah, im just waiting for a phone call or sms from someone important.
But my phone doesn't rings..
I am actually worried .. so much..
or just missing you.
Seriously, what's our relationship now?
I just need an answer from you.. What do u intend to u?
All the decision is up to u.
If you are happy, i will accept anything..
All i want is you to be happy..and as happy as u can.
After i met you, i learnt how to treasure everyone around me.
My friends and my families..
I have changed.. and truthfully speaking, i have changed to a better one.
I learnt to love my friends and families more.
Showing care and concern and be there for them.
And i want everyone to be happy...
I may be not like myself, but i know that at least i changed to make my life go on.
I love my Family,
I love my friends and lastly..
I love you.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
11/12/2005 09:43:00 AM
-Screams , yells and wails-
``__save meeeeeeeee! ="(
Slept at 8am in the morning ytd and woke up at 2pm.
After waking up and preparation, i went over to mabel's house to help out.
Prepared things and food for the coming bbq later in the evening.
After that we took uncle's van to east coast for the bbq.
Eric and Fiona took almost 2 hrs to set up the fire. Lol
and making Mabel , Lili and i to starve there but...
fortunately, there's some cook food. Uncle's culinary skills is damn nice.
We smell the aroma of the food from mable's hse till the pit. >.>
-drooling and cant wait to have it-
we left the pit at ard 12 30am.
Uncle sent each of us back to home. so nice of him..
now here comes the bad things..
Today is a strange and sad day for me.
Truly speaking i didnt enjoy myself.
My mind is in a mess and i kept thinking of stuff.
Didn't even talk much to baby today..
Just seems like there's a wall in between of us.
We just can't seems to get close.
Trying to sort up my thoughts, i actually bursted out into tears.
why am i this way? i dont understand.
I really need someone there for me..
I need a hug, i want to be doted .
I need a shoulder but im all alone.
I wanna be fine but i just can't.
Drank few bottles of heniken just now..
Felt better and cry out my heart.
But deep inside im feeling bitter.
i ain't drank at all, not even getting dizzy,
Just feels that no matter how much i drink today..
i can't get drunk...
My heart is like in pieces and i can't get in back in a whole.
I don't knw what im doing and what i should really do?
Please, someone pls... lead me.
Give me a vivid answer of what i should do.. lead me..
-swings the white flag-
i surrender to my life.
Yes, im implusive..
But all that shouldn't been done was done..
what can i do... what can i do?!
im confused, im frustrated, im in dilemma..
Why am i always causing problems for no reasons.
Pls wake up, Qini!
wake up... know where u are .. where u are leading to..
THINK before u do.
Just like what pple say..
i used to go with my heart and not with my brain..
Think before u get into conclusion.
Whatever.. i feel weak now.
Friday, November 11, 2005
11/11/2005 10:13:00 AM
i am back to blog agn.
Met ying first and went to foodcourt to sit and meanwhile we have lil bites, after that kai arrived.
didn't meet kai up for quite long. He became more good-looking le la. lol
We sat there and watch anime on kai's lappy.
we watched 2 anime.
1st one is a Hentai anime "La Blue Girl" which is damn funny!
The way the girl moans... is.....terrible.
2nd one that we watched is about some angels. It's nice but lame.
Just like a touching love story but i pity sakura-chan in the anime.
'cause whenever Dokuro-chan gets angry or excited she tends to hit sakura to death. -violent-
And after that she will chants and heal him back which is kinda stupid lol.
After all the animes, we went to have our dinner.
We ate teppanyaki, nice but nt up to standard. =/
We went to Macdonalds and wait for bei .
We slacked and chit-chatted for awhile.
After that i went home.
Reach home alrdy and started watching my "wang zi bian qing wa" left 2episode to last.
It was so touching and i teared. -got scolded by my mom thou'-
-not feeling well... ciaoz
Thursday, November 10, 2005
11/10/2005 11:37:00 PM
HappY
Belated
22th
Birthday to Mabeline!
*best wishes and enjoy!
*play hard tml at the bbq
*may all ur wishes come true
*Wishing u happiness and good health,
*Take care =)
Yesterday, baby told me things.
She spoke out her heart telling me things that i wanted to know.
I listened to her soundly and yeah she likes me.
I truly understand how u feel my dear.
I shouldn't have agreed.
We are jus too implusive.
I want u to be happy and nt for me to keep causing troubles for u.
Like what i said i am falling in love with you.
I really hate myself this time. -hate myself to e core-
im sorry.
I just hope that everything will be smooth for us soon.
Sorry baby.. im not good at speaking.
The only way to express my feelings is to blog or by letter.
everytime i speak to u seems like all my worries are gone.
-got to rush to meet ying ~
be back later =)
Belated
22th
Birthday to Mabeline!
*best wishes and enjoy!
*play hard tml at the bbq
*may all ur wishes come true
*Wishing u happiness and good health,
*Take care =)
Yesterday, baby told me things.
She spoke out her heart telling me things that i wanted to know.
I listened to her soundly and yeah she likes me.
I truly understand how u feel my dear.
I shouldn't have agreed.
We are jus too implusive.
I want u to be happy and nt for me to keep causing troubles for u.
Like what i said i am falling in love with you.
I really hate myself this time. -hate myself to e core-
im sorry.
I just hope that everything will be smooth for us soon.
Sorry baby.. im not good at speaking.
The only way to express my feelings is to blog or by letter.
everytime i speak to u seems like all my worries are gone.
-got to rush to meet ying ~
be back later =)
11/10/2005 01:48:00 AM
what's with me?
im having insomnia and nightmares here and there.
pls? can't i have a nice slp?
woke up at 3pm and had duck porridge for lunch.
Mom packed it for me and my sister,qiqi.
Today is a weird day as i can say.
After having my lunch and stuff.
I sweep and mop the floor. damn tiring lol.
I find myself actually so obedient today and i am happy after helping my mum out.
-a sense of satisfaction-
After helping out , i phoned my baby...wanted to call for since i woke up but i can't get the chance to.
Hope baby won't mind cause i said im calling u once im awake but i didn't ="(
Anyways, baby is acting weird on phone.
As in, something bad she's going to say to me.
So i went to shower and asked her to call me back in 15mins
*but my phone haven't ring yet.
im still waiting for her call.
baby.. i can see that u are under alot of pressure.
I really hope that u would be happy with me.
I know you are encountering lots of problems.
but i can't help much.
I just wanna treat u as good as possible, as sweet as i can be.
I am pressurize too, seriously im really sad to see u this way.
I am thinking thru' alot and still i don't know what i should do.
Maybe the love isn't strong yet.
I think of u and i think of friends,
I just wanna hear from u.. What are u actually thinking or what u are planning to do?
I want to know how u feel abt this relationship that we are having.
It's weird to be like this. I wanna it to be sweet..
do u really love me? or maybe it's just a passing feeling...
-off to tv* ciaoz~
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
11/09/2005 12:52:00 PM
Sorry to my friends out there who have been rushing me for making a brand new blog.
Now here it is!
I am back to blogger.
Ain't you guys happy for me? =)
Well well , its already 4.55am now.
I am extremely exhuasted and i took 6 freaking hrs to complete this simple blog.
Attempts and attempts.. i just kept getting this blog screwed up.
But finally, i did it at last.
And guys.. strat flooding my tagboard now! xD
Think about it...
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love love somebody else.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendships never ends. Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars... you don't always see them there. Don't frown; you never know who is falling in love with ur smile.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
im off to bed..
-sign off xue`-
11/09/2005 12:08:00 PM