Monday, May 01, 2006
5/01/2006 05:25:00 PM
I hate myself.
im havinmg insomnia! argh.. I woke up at 5 30am.. I slept at 2am.
Freaking shyt thingy is that i got to work at 11am-10pm.
Im gonna faint sooner or later.
Yesterday was the first working day of this week and im feeling so weak..
Yes, i vomited and nearly faint.
Im certified sick now.
Having Headaches, Flu, Cough And Unstable Fever.
Whole body aches, very restless.
Something is still bothering me. -sigh-
I know that you still love her alot.
I can see that and i can feel it.
I really am sad to see things go this way.
And i can't do anything.
I felt that we are just fools.
Like a chain..
I Love You, U Love Her, Her loves She.
Like...
I am waiting for you,
You are waiting for her and
She is with her.
I won't get to have you and u won't get to have her.
Im just freaking sad that we just can't be together.
Maybe it's really time for me to give up and let those times become memories.
I am still looking forward,
I still want to stay with you.
Taking care of you.
Having ice water fights on bed.
Snatching for computer.
Taking pictures of us.
Lovey dovey with you.
Cook with u with our very own recepies.
Scratching ur back for you.
Painting our nails and stuff.
Hugging your pillow.
Having movie together.
Enjoy our cheese favourites.
Playing with meow meow.
Cleaning niuniu's cage together.
Pulling you up from bed.
Hearing you whines.
Spend occasions together.
Our beloved sushi buffets.
I miss those times and i always thought im strong enough to pull thru'
I am fallin' apart soon.
I can't take this soon.
I don't want to spend my days tearing for nthing.
My heartt....
is.....
achingg.......
Can you please tell me?
What can i do to be tgt with you once again?
I really.... reallyyy... love you alot... alot......